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Voices Within v2 by trh2086, literature

Voices Within by trh2086, literature

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Voices Within

My mind is full of screaming voices That encourage the wrong choices That tell me I'm worthless These voices are like a circus Hate; the voice of spite, fear, and anger Assurance; the voice of confidence, honesty, and my anchor Despair; the voice of depression, anxiety, and dismay Which one will rule today? With hate and despair the most deafening The voice of assurance is a blessing

I Won't Wait by trh2086, literature

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I Won't Wait

Here I am one last time I'm waiting outside your door My old friend, I think I'm lying to myself again When I say I could never do this again I don't care what you say anymore Because you know it's already in my head There's too many people inside of you Too many reasons we can't again I won't wait now For you to make up your mind It's too late now Now after all of this time I won't wait now For you to leave me behind I want to see all the sights and sound of you I can feel you everywhere I still smell your hair and your cheap perfume And I only wish you were here Empty spaces I never thought you know These empty spaces in my head I'm break

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Voices Within v2 by trh2086, literature

Voices Within by trh2086, literature

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Voices Within

I Won't Wait by trh2086, literature

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I Won't Wait

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Shadow World by ImmortalizedLies, literature

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Shadow World

Shadow World It's enveloping my heart And tainting my soul I've been corrupted by the dark A new power to behold I'm too far gone already Just give in Accepting my tragedy A new path will begin Transform into what I dreamed of No longer afraid The road to peace will be victorious A triumph so great I closed my eyes for the last time / I watched it all disappear I left behind my old life / I've become what I've feared - I know this path is one that very few desire But what's done is done Never again will I look into a mirror For my darkness and I have become one It's what I've always want

Depression (in Eight Parts) by tinkertype, literature

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Depression (in Eight Parts)

I. I took a walk once, and Depression walked alongside me. "I want to be alone," I told him. "I know," he replied, "Why do you think I'm here?" II. "I have a plan," Depression said to me. "Not today," I said. "I'm tired." He frowned and asked, "How did you know my plan?" III. I gave the weekend over to Depression but he took three days instead of two. "Think of it as an investment," he said. "And maybe I'll let you have a Friday night without regrets." IV. Fallen to the floor I look up and see he's smiling at me. "You know what they say about old dogs." He's doing this on purpose, I know he is- and it's working. "They can't l

I long to set this world aflame. by DearPoetry, literature

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I long to set this world aflame.

I once dreamt of ashes and dragons, as dark ravens loomed over my sleeping form, planting cadaver kisses along my neck. Stepping into a river of colors, I contemplated smoke halos and the unlit cigarette between my teeth. I asked myself if all of this was worth it- gasoline rainbows painting landscapes along my thighs. I'd never smoked a day in my life, but I liked to play with fire. [Light a match and watch me burn. ]

Emotions by The-Shifty-Lion, literature

Reach by KittySib, literature

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Reach

Listening to music that haunts me I read the sadness of others. My own loneliness echoes In the words before my eyes. Is the whole world Tear stricken and alone? Is there any hope of Connecting to anyone, When every person Seems surrounded by sorrow? Will my faint hope be able to Touch anyone else? Will my desire to share a smile Be mirrored in pools of tears? If I offer a shoulder, Will it be shunned? Even though I am alone, I cannot keep from reaching out, From hoping I can make a difference. Surely everyone is just starved For affection and kindness, Just as I am. Maybe if I keep trying, A faint smile will Drift across someone's face. Mayb

Let me die by GhostOfTheEmptyGrave, literature

Unwanted by FallenNightAngel, literature

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Unwanted

Left here alone, Lost without meaning. No tears, no smiles Just confusion and anger Slowly taking over. Temptation to escape, No hand to save me from this nightmare. Not this time... Tossed aside, Kicked around, By the people that use to care. Caught pretending, Choking on everyone elses lie. Forbidden happiness, Killing the last of my hope. The heart is scarred, Stained memories laid to rest. The heartbeat that once was, Becomes confused with deaths' cry. Silence fills the soul, Another unwanted battered past.

Sweet, Sweet Lobotomy by Thediamondintherough, literature

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Sweet, Sweet Lobotomy

Consciousness is a terrible curse, It is the closest thing to tasting Hell, I experience what it's like to drown without touching a single drop of water, I've lived a life of a looping nightmare, But this time I have a medication that has a 100% success rate. As the painted black silence creeps further through my walls, I grip my medication, named "Ice Pick", tight As I carefully inject it into the corner of my right eye. Once it's wedged into the socket, I take a rock and slowly hammer it in, Cracking the paint off the silence with my screams, But don't fret, I won't shed a single bloody tear, Now the injection is complete: time for the be

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Nov 20, 1986
United States
Deviant for 18 years
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Current Residence: Arlington, Texas
Favorite genre of music: Rock
Operating System: Windows 8.1 Pro 64-bit
MP3 player of choice: Samsung Galaxy Tab S

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Repo! The Genetic Opera

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Final Fantasy X

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PS2

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Swords, Night, Music, the Paranormal

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trh2086

Dec 14, 2020

Just an update

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For anyone that favorites or comments on any of my limited content, I'm not on here that often and I'm certainly not making much content at all. My depression and worsening social life has me at a point that I don't really care much for anything and seems to be affecting my mental abilities in a very negative way. This probably doesn't matter that much as it isn't exactly like I have a large following; but, I'd figure I'd let everyone know since there has been SOME activity on my content.

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trh2086

May 31, 2020

Just some thoughts

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It has been nearly 15 years since I last had a friend that I truly felt like I could be myself around and, much more importantly, do things I would not normally do by myself based solely on a “because why not” kind of dare; only one of you knew this version of me. These days I am not sure if I miss that friendship or if I wish it never happened. I think about 75% of the time I wish I had never experienced it; growing a little more every day I get on social media, especially Facebook. My ability to develop and hold onto new relationships has been deteriorating over the last 10 years. Question is, is it ALL my fault like many imply, or outright say, it is? I am now to the point that I am slowly starting to regret even sticking around a particular place for as long as I did as a few of the issues I have with people stem from my time there over the course of 10 years. I spent so much of my time there to get away from my “family” only to eventually get similar treatments and views. I know

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trh2086

Jun 19, 2012

I don't know what to call this

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I have been quite depressed here lately due to some hard times. Now, I was diagnosed with depression back in 2008 so my current situation is not exactly easy for me to deal with. It is a double shot here! Here's how I am feeling. I wouldn't quite call myself suicidal, but I am not not suicidal either. I know, it does not make much sense. I told the doctor I did not know if I was suicidal, but I did think of death quite often. Almost every night, I thought about what it would be like for everyone else I simply disappeared, died or, in fact, killed myself. I have always said I would never commit suicide and I firmly believe this, but I unfortu